So I did it. I won't even say a word, and nor should you. It is what it is, no matter what I said in any previous blogs (say April 2007).
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Sunday, January 20, 2008
Thursday, January 17, 2008
just a thought
Ah hell...here we go again. I'm sitting here in a exhausting, and near apathetic, loss for words. I want to write, I do. And yet, I find it hard to focus my thoughts. There seems to be nothing to write about. The Shins are singing through the speakers to the left and right of me, hands burning from the unnumbing process that I have to dread through (it's unbelievable cold outside). What is a man to write about? Complaints? Sure, but those are easy. Sum up my life as in the past month or so? Could, but honestly, those can be the most boring blogs to read. Damn it, I did it again. I had nothing to say and so I drug on about nothing. Here's the line...here's me. (making swinging motion with one arm and doing to walking man motion across it with the other) Deep breathes, count to ten. Focus....sigh....just focus. Nope, didn't work. Never does.
Sometimes I just wish life would take a day off. A day that Nothing happens. No one says anything, no one goes anywhere. I just need to step back, look at myself. Look at my life. Make an assessment in sorts. I think that I've had many chances to grow and learn from what's been going on in my life recently with family, friends, school, but I never want to think about them. They're just so emotionally draining. I heard somewhere that it's good for a person to go off by themselves and just be alone. Meditate, pray, just breath. You know, four times a minute like we're suppose to. I heard that it's actually biblical. It's true, I guess. Jesus went off on his own all the time, right? I don't know, maybe I don't give myself any real alone time. I usually just take naps.
It was speratic and quite choppy, but so are my thoughts most the time. Thanks for listening, or reading I guess. I think that maybe my blogs would be better when read aloud. Just a thought.
Sometimes I just wish life would take a day off. A day that Nothing happens. No one says anything, no one goes anywhere. I just need to step back, look at myself. Look at my life. Make an assessment in sorts. I think that I've had many chances to grow and learn from what's been going on in my life recently with family, friends, school, but I never want to think about them. They're just so emotionally draining. I heard somewhere that it's good for a person to go off by themselves and just be alone. Meditate, pray, just breath. You know, four times a minute like we're suppose to. I heard that it's actually biblical. It's true, I guess. Jesus went off on his own all the time, right? I don't know, maybe I don't give myself any real alone time. I usually just take naps.
It was speratic and quite choppy, but so are my thoughts most the time. Thanks for listening, or reading I guess. I think that maybe my blogs would be better when read aloud. Just a thought.
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